Tue 28 May 2002 14:53
1545
Laying on floor watching the inner clouds float on the inside.
What jarred me from my trance?
The thought that I could be like my mom to someone (sara) see above (far above, radical feminism).

So still and quiet it is here.

the game
the rules
play

now that I've awakened, what is on the list?

How do I get from un awakened (trancing) to acting?

To begin everything from nothing. Every day. Scary.

No home. No savings. No retirement. No vacation. No ease. No security.

Expansive time. World home. Life savings. Life retirement/no retirement. Life vacation. life ease. the ultimate security.

Trancing. Monastery. 42nd St.

That twilight state, from progoff--

I have no answers.

I have no plan.

I shall react to contingencies.

My projects are tenuous (but bedrock):
body: dance. 2 sun salutations. Swim?
play: violin
document: website
live, die.
love: ? whomever presents.

Mollie.

I have a pair of nail clippers. My nails are now as pretty as they should be.

Would sara or someone else love my game enough.

Is that a concern?

"How much do you swim?"

missing valerie.

this crystal state.

--
life is fine. let's continue.

work on web site, back up. Then work on music. Nothing else.

sounds good.

1716
there is a world out there. it doesn't know what it's doing, but it does exist.

1735 regressing. I reek. gaseous. and overeating sunflower seeds. done.

1905 o.k. oldhome00 is complete (except for jody image) except for jd images (netscape dir?)

I shall begin to work two hours every day on the site--now that I returned without reading the KW (collected works of) tomes.

I have other books, but fancy I shall work on site instead.
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