Sat 22 Jun 2002 12:57
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So, What's Your Deal?

Well, I'm a 30-something guy who was born in the US but spends most of his time these days in other countries. I don't want a regular job, a career or a ground-floor job in the plastics industry. I want to create, explore, learn lots of neat stuff, love, make a positive contribution to this world and be one of the best in some field, which one I don't yet know.

why columbia?


2002-06-22-1732
it's been a good day.
woke up early- 430 was thought milling till 530
to the pool close to 640.
Swam well, continuous smooth backstroke, then freestyle.

the beautiful girl swimmer was there. She's just a girl,
as I was doing my old man stroke, she lithely, spryly rolled in her warm-up laps, and I made sure to stay [-]
earlier, her head, hair angle, curves

why these youth so youthful and the old folks so old?
Why the older women so lumpy, and the young women so fine?
she is a swimmer specimen. not all girls her age have her nearly anorexic form.
But there is something.
Our society(?) takes vigorous youngsters and produces (in at least some cases, well-represented at the pool) ...

To think also, that older men used to maybe still do have relationships with women as much younger ...

I know there are women younger than I more mature than I, but in general,
I don't know where-
great women:
ellie huffman (far older) [her body not taken care of, like perhaps her mind]

I'm sitting in bryant park.

among the quakers I can probably find others whose contemplative age is -

my eyes are unbalanced.

the swimmer girl's face is not stunning, her form

is

the way she springs through the water, is.

I saw a forlorn look on rachel's face,

later, I introduced myself, "Hi, I'm colin, what's your name?" [do you swim somewhere else during the week?]

She's maybe forty. Her voice is not like I expected (I suppose I hoped for a different one). Nice form, and only swims here S,S

a voice (acting) oratory teacher at laguardia community college. lives on 91st and Bwy.

I had noticed her for a while,

, 'would I want to start something?'

But her forlorness was such, so well, that she got me-

maybe forty- and.

but not over.

there are some fine older women-
some wry/like dry twigs, fit (one). Bernadette and the other yoga instructor. [softer]

'swimming was great this morning, dear!!

[left message for sara, then later bob, also joanna re personal trainer friend]

and movement afterward

not having to go to work

playground

revival/breast cancer walk, keyboardest. tents on the field

subway,

28th st
organic market
whole foods beauty
$19 yeast
to 14th st.
duane reed
$15 condoms, qtips. 12 non lubricated trojans, 12 spermicidal lifestyles
there's a proxy block on at work, but googles cache of a site mentions that the spermicidal/lubricated taste bad for fellatio
not my concern, but rather cunnilingus
pregnancy is an issue, though

an academic instution, public with a proxybloc on sites...

then a music store on 23rd, found walking by, with thousand dollar tubas,saxes and very cheap violins (I could have one for $300)

Ended up getting a korg chromatic tuner. This computer can do the same with software I found later, but.

[$20]

whole foods is a special place, an example of something very well done.

then the farmer's market, thanks to rebecca's visit.

beautiful women [men], beautiful park.

Union Square,

and why was I thinking of leaving NYC?

I shall be a personal trainer.

work around 12 or so, to internet.
looked at software tuners. I would have found them if I had used 'chromatic' before.
wrists are affected by computer use
eyes,

looked at antipsychiatry

looked at physical trainer
personal trainer
monster.com
fitness trainer

and found some sites of those doing close to what I'm considering

got midi files for book1+ of suzuki method.

have not worked on ws yet
have not practised v yet
though played with tuners

interesting websites--the zettai.net (zopehoster) guy.
the john howard and brother page.
news?
s.d.?
super villan site.

nothing stunning(?)

female/male fitness trainer and miss america fitness trainer sites..

would I give up early mornings to train others?

guess that's all.
continue.
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