Sun 23 Jun 2002 10:11
shall return the Korg.

did not swim long or hard

did not do 2 sun salutations, other exercises.

probably will not swim tomorrow- run.

amazed at starbucks. at mcdonalds. (vast seating space) thin man eating.

[young shapely girl, seeming abashed, as I stepped out of the way, since I was just gazing at the menu, fathoming food so cheap where at the starbucks next door coffee on the menu in spanish most often went for $3; prices which seem to have been under a dollar for as long as I can remember; now they have salads and grilled chicken fajita (~$5); their coffee is $0.79?; she went up to the vast, deserted upper seating area, her music video style.
And who visits starbucks? A middle eastern doctor looking man looking tired looked perturbed that there was a sign apologizing that they would not be open till 9. Later a black couple was there, looking different from the populace of sidewalk (a beautiful yet on the way out non-white woman with child in stroller somberly occasionally nodding as she listened to a payphone handset, perhaps occasionally quietly saying something; the thin man eating now out on the street, a younger girl in a blue shirt moving around perhaps momentarily amused by me, a bellied blackish man settling in to the leather seat of his premium SUV playing dominican(?) music, the peaceful mexicans in the place in between the streets.), the black man looking successful, perceptive, not-from-here, the black woman, if she had been white, I might have said wow, who is she, what does she do? the first time I glanced her way--it took me to my second pass by. I tend to be overly curious about white-looking people should any happen to pass by, especially women- two, maybe three this morning. The bargain-seeking young white male crowd, not as so.]

mexican young men sitting on benches in the place in the middle of the street.

one absorbed in his lottery card, endlessly

another contendedly, occasionally eating potato chips.

another just sitting. [perhaps restlessly]

[later an older man came and sat on the bench of the potato chip eating younger man. The mexicans very often look healthy and pretty, and they get up early and play in the park. Peaceful. Two were doing a play sort of wrestling, gripping hands, forearms, standing up, and - beautiful to see their smiles, and apparently pure childlike unselfconscious fun.    On the street corner 139 & bwy east corner in shiny cars pulled next to eachother two from the music video style one, black, one non-white, shared swigs from a bottle of wine, their cars seating others like them, and the requisite music video women, the guys smile and say their guy things, and laugh, and one done bottling, turning on his stereo and setting off the car alarm of a car parked next to his, before they left, driving north, but not speedy or peeling out, I noticed. Yesterday peering in the police van noticing a whiteboard which seemed to list: purse snatchings -- 4, etc.]

[I know why time goes by faster when one is older--one's mind has more in it, and continually jumping from thing to thing, association. If all that were not there, one would only have the present moment and immediate stimuli/perceptions. Oh, for an hour to be an eternity.]

something special about the mexicans?

I think that's where they are from, they are short and not like the domincans.

the mcd's worker preparing a perhaps mcmuffin with a belly, younger man, not uncontent, but not happy, in a ritual, that must be easy, and must be codified and repeated in many places, using ingredients themselves...

there is something special about that muffin, that wrapper, that piece of meat put in between the muffin halves, produced somewhere to be just a certain way, formulaic


eating too many oats? the carbs shall fatten?

struk, contemplating, at the pool how to mark the copyrighted work included in this site, so they could be turned off, if necessary

that is all.

I was doing my laundry. Often I call people.

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if doing computer work, for myself, I would just over eat and sleep most of the time. Need physical work? window washing?


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rebecca just called, it seems I feel nothing about interaction with her, and "love you, bye" I am glad to learn/be reminded of petersen's guide to edible plants. Yeah, I feel something. Being able to talk with/ visit her is so much better than the alternative (to not). still, something missing?

enjoying progressing on ws project. enjoying eating a plantain after not having eaten since those oats (not all of which stayed)

reading my uc berkeley essay, which I just added... it's good. And here I am 7 years

so happy to have the stretch band (xerband)

to live so simply

the aesthetic of this room (and all my past rooms)

2250 bob called-
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