Mon 26 Aug 1996 20:00
Adrian, one of the dark haired and no questions, not thinking

I do like to start at the top
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Sun 25 Aug 1996 20:00
Who can I talk to?

Why women? Because they can change first, I think and drag the guys along

yes, zeno's is important

8.25 sunday

Today is fine.
I called up Rebecca and we met to play tennis, and she liked it. I'm still a little sorry at not being able to restrain myself, saying goodbye to Kristen, but I expect that will get better with time.

I always have the question of what to do. and I will start writing soon..

I guess I am finally learning what sort of has to be done on the basic level, how to get over an emotion in the way of talking to people.

The answer is to simply not think or feel too much and ask them if they'd like to do something. In some cases, we can have the best, like Rebecca said she'd like to walk around greenlake.

It doesn't get much simpler,

I always see the opportunity and tendency towards superficiality. and I know it is the end. I am the cause, often of intensity, and I see it is the end.

The planes and helecopters here need mufflers. and I need a pillow

I guess I will concentrate on a change in focus, a change to focus on the self. and the self is other people.

I would like the dialogue to be openly on the philosophical, openly about intimacy and openly about the sadness so that these people can cure themselves.

I know I would be in a bad way if I did not have classes, If I did not have rowing and If I did not have a way of getting together with these people.

I know there are so many as me, and I know there are many who what they do feels good, and they go on, no reason to question until it hurts.

I want to focus on you, and have you here to ask your opinion of my communication of my awareness.

I know I need to be with women, I think because we men often think we have no future together, with jackson it was me, with zach, him maybe.

But I can always talk to her, if we keep it close to real.

A lot of it involves awareness of the illusions that mislead us from the right way of being. As if there is.

And friends, that's all there is, forever. Friends

is how I need to be aware and get rid of the illusion of romantic love which somehow took me so early on, I guess, so that I could no longer just be with a girl, like I'm with aguy, but I'm getting back, or there.

Just so's I know enough that on a given day, I can find one of them to spend time with, because I need to be with her.

Because of love, as love is giving and being given to, and this is necessary for my own and her significance.

To be friends with everyone friendly.

I wish you could tell me what happens next, but I will wait and see. How does one make the time last and deepen, how far can I go If she has not felt as I have, and she never can? How far can she go with me?

Now you notice, in many cases, it is me calling them, but in one case, Mollie called me, I wonder if she had to think as I do

How active are these questioners, and how active am I I know I cannot be always. Because I love in action, not questions for myself only.

And it is the people I will see for time, and this time it is only those who row. And this selects a group who is already closer to appreciating what I appreciate.

Because of the reasons we come to gether there.

So how do I keep it vital new. It always is the depth of the person, and I do not know. Gwen.

It is a characteristic that they've toughed it out themselves, institutionless, and then come to see the reason to be institutionalized. So they choose their institutions and make them, not the other way around.

have to go out alone to be able to give. it is the dialogue and the common experience., not the common experience, the shared experience.

Oh no,: hey Kristen, did you want to play today? or.. and so I wonder if I'll call and sure I will.

I can say that now.

So what work do I have to do with myself. And that is the creation of a community a group to question, but to experience, and to get the inside out.

And to go on thinking myself, so I might have something to give these people who have it all.

And to write the hallstroms a thank you.

To see the faces of all the people who made you.

And to realize how much that is.

How much they are. You all, you all are me.

And you are they.

And to focus the questions in the right way.

It is the individuals who make the whole, and all change must be in them.

And the mech is   Communication.


I'm going crazy, I don't know her, I'm dying.

Mom, tennis raquet?

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text for flyer:

Premise:
our own self and the people we live with
are the source of all meaning and significance in our lives.

Purpose:
To live life in a way most meaningful to ourselves.

by exploring the source of meaning.

People are so rarely together to focus simply on eachother and themselves. And the process of being, living,

Premise:
our own self and the people we live with
are the source of all meaning and significance in our lives.


We
and the people we live with
are the source of all meaning
and significance
  in our life.


discuss questions of our own consciousness
Create meaningful experience. create meaning

make questions such as, "Why am I feeling?"
and genuine expressions of feeling,
and attempts to understand our emotion
the norm, not the exception

Why do you mean so much to me,
can I understand?

What is best to give and to recieve?

What is the best way to be with.


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In the rain meet at the bus stop by the herb garden.
After 9/12 we'll probably keep meeting--
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