Sat 07 Sep 1996 21:45
Tell me there's not a problem.

Day of days.
There are no answers now.

The hard time is Kr's time and seeing how she is, who she is, and Kristen, It is hard to know your hurt and to say not a thing about it and to see that there is this, and this is why you are so good.

Rebecca is amazing. I don't know that I have a question any more. I have found

There are others though who seem they have won out. I think I will watch and see how they feel, and how I feel.

She will leave in time, and maybe I will get to see her again, and as for passion that can go,

there is total emotional involvment, but it doesn't have to kill me. The only question is what to do with the rest of my time here. I'd like to be with these people, they are so good, and together, we are so good.

This screen is so bright in the darkness of this place. It is nice to be away, I still hear a car off over there, and plane. Portland.

 I think I want to live with the aesthetic beauty of the paintings or the stained glass, or any one of these people. But I don't know What it does for you, It is nice you know, and with appreciation.

I could be quiet and at peace, I suppose and go to bed, but I don't want to, there is enough of that for me, It is so much better to want to change and to want something.

I think you may know the feeling of wondering what it is that you do.

I know. I know it is people, and people, and people, but I do not know how. What do I do with them? What do I do with her, and does she do a thing with me?

There is nothing but the enjoyment, and what of her sadness? What of her irrationality, and perception? She has it fine,
maybe not.

So I go on, and she'll go on, and maybe come back, but she's fine, and I will not wonder any more because she'll be there.

mmmmm

I will not take the aspirations, I will stay quiet and stay low, and let the times pass by, but not the people, not the people.

And always I will see her again, and always I will see myself again, time will go on and she will do and go, and I will be here, quiet like the tree, like the tree.

It is acceptance as you are, and I guess, realization that I am of value somehow, simply by what I do and how I am with you.

acceptance as I am

and the ability to give, as if you have a need, as you have a need, and I can give, if you have a need,

as you all give somehow, of your sadness of your tradgedy, of you soundness, suceess and sanity.

How long can this time go on? I think it is a time of feeling that what I do means, and what I do is valued, and who I am is valued, and I do this by valuing the other. I need someone like you dear rebecca, a person whom I can spend time with, and I think that may be all, but the future must be open as it is.

How long can it go on, sorry for the beep, How long can it go on?

Give me the structure of the biology, can I take it without it, and create a structure out of


goodnight, i love you, colin.
goodnight.

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