Mon 30 Sep 1996 10:55
Yuck.
Saw page, the roller skater,
dancing woman
She look like inteviewer for graphic design job.
Yuck.
School is ugly.
time to do my own work.
own work
lets write
span hwork
sp cmu reading
later chem,
later physio
physio
Miss rebecca.
I see all these faces now, and am so void of hope, they have such less interest for me. i am
not seeing the crazyiness in them any more.
Miss rebecca, miss seing the regular people. Miss small classes, Miss summer.
Need rowing. The fam faces of job are nice things.
will find lab.
simply going along, intellectually, not so emotionally active now,
can you tell,
not lonesome, not sad enough any more.
so it seems I live life on a different level.
a
a different level. I bet KD is here but I do not check for a time
should call Kristen
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that's it.
writing
9.30.96 1650 monday
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I was rather freaked to day.
All of a sudden I am around tons of people, and I am realizing how much of work, that is
not exactly my own that I have to do.
It is scary.
I do not enjoy seeing all the people, because I know a certain group of people I like very
much, the rowers, and my good friends from them
and Becky Skivver
I don't need the crowds, I want things to be quiet and slow, I want to have one project to
work on at a time, and there, we take it easy and slowly, we do nothing, but quiet.
It is a little good to me.
I do wish I could look at all the people and know they are incredibly smart, like perhaps
one might, at stanford. But here I see a lot of sadness,
of course the sadness is all my own. There were times when I loved to see them all.
It is good to be home, to eat and lay on my bed, quiet, with eyes closed. My best class is to
come, and also speech communication,
and I have flinched on my paper, we will see what happens, love.
I am not working at all.
I should have time to go to class, rest, do my work, swim, visit rebecca,
and write revolution, and also, also, stay vital, and love speaking with people. I want to talk
to people who want to talk to me, like becky, like Kristen,
you know.
Staying vital, Your environment is you and the people you know well, as well as much of
the external stuff, all the people around you. and structures, and cars and cigarettes.
what of what they do to me? Oh, and I can't believe R will stay as me. I hope she does, I
hope.
The types of experience.
They say if you are living right it does not matter when you die. They say,
If I were to die soon there is little I could change because the people I care most about are
not living on that same scale. I could stop and maybe help those destitutes, any ways.
well, let us go quietly on. Things are
not
right,
and I think,
Harvey Jackins, is in the right mind of how to live, in some ways.
He can be if he likes with people always appreciated, always
appreciating,
never swept along fighting for significance,
like maybe I will try.
from sp cmu book p 11
Elie Wiesel
And then I explained to
and that is why I swore never to be silent whenever and wherever human beings endure
suffering and humiliation. We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor,
never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.
p25 the speech builds community with the audience
26 Respect for listeners
meet the listeners where they are
do not insult listeners' intelligence or judgement
make sure what you have to say is worth listeners' time
respect listeners' ability to assess your message Kristen
not misleading
Respect the cultural diversity of your audience
respect for the topic,
responsibility for your statements
concern for consequences
this fucking sucks sitting here reading by myself.
don't forget drama and dance
p34 Why do people feel nervous about speaking in front of an audience?
purpose
thesis
ethos
the apparent character of the speaker as attributed to the speaker by listeners
all the adjectives about a classmate you can attribute during the short speech. After
actually.
uses 'her,
love
38 invention- becoming aware of one's own ideas and choosing among them.
MLK musical
page rollerskating supervisor
susan ken becca
45 wakeup
this concerns you
generally speaking
for example
so what
48 preparation outline
presentation outline. less detail
practise
49 talk it through
find an empty room to practice in
exact wording of intro and conclusion
50 in response to this emotional situation the body undergoes a number of chemical
changes. More blood sugar becomes available; insulin is secreted; blood pressure,
respiration, and the conductivity of nerves all increase. These chemical changes in turn
induce ffelings of anxiety or fear. Can be immobilized
the same chem changes can bring others to a higher state of readiness and confidence.
An extra burst of energy, psyched up,
please not an extreme psychological reaction
I talked a little to becky to day it was good to see her, not sure I did what she needed
really,
love
you are nervous you are nervous you are nervous
concentrate on the effect you want to have on your audience
fam with outline, frequent practice.
Act confident, even if not.
work carefully with the introduction
sensitive to feedback
take notes on the comments of the audience about the speech.
remember what is most important
worry about that if at all
don't worry,
do something always
ych
p2 Biopsych
neuroscience. Does the brain have the capacity to understand something as complex as
itself?
What does rebecca have? How is she hurt? She had a bug bite on her foot,
I have a split.
Illana
psychobiology, behavioral biology, behavioral neuroscience
Organization of Behavior in 1949 by D.O. Hebb see milner 1993, milner and white 1987
first comprehensive theory of how complex psych phenom
might be produced by brain activity.
based his theory on human, animal exp,
clinical case studies, logical ars from obs of daily life.
Biopsych is an infant compared to phys, bio, chem
wow, gouterman called me- wants me to transfer in! pretty amazing.
hasta pronto
hasta manana
chau. nos vemos
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