Sun 07 Apr 2002 18:51
today as yesterday I'm working on my web site. The difference is, today I feel like I'm making decent progress!

I'm not getting enough exercise (stretching/dance type in particular), but in time, that should change.

It was very very nice to see Joanna yesterday. I was stuck in a rut, and got to get out of it to visit her. She hurt her knee, however, and I fear I'm not sure how to act when someone is suffering--unless what I can do to help is clear. We wandered around, froze (from the cold), and didn't talk of much of great significance, but I did show her the Newstart (weimar.org) cookbook, and one of Wilber's books (Theory of Everything), and we discussed abortion/euthanasia/drug war politics. I think I managed avoiding sounding like a zealot, but who knows. At least I didn't feel so annoyed at myself for talking about those things as I usually do. I think Wilber's take on things helps very much my being able to discuss those issues in a pleasant way.

Ani di Franco was singing at carnegie hall and all these young kids- adolescents, etc.- were out in front. Is she the one with song, Like a bird I fly away?

I really felt wonderful riding the 1 back home after saying good-bye to Joanna on the Q at 42nd st... Like I've felt strongly recently on occasion--that I really love this city and love being here--deeply. I will be having to move soon (by July) to a different room, still in NYC, and I hope things work out as reasonably well in the place I find as in this one.

Joanna and I went through central park, past some men and women in kilts, playing bagpipes (they were everywhere). I gave her some Alex Grey cards from the 'rave' I went to, in the bottom of a once-sunk ship, on Friday evening. We went through the zoo, and then to Trump plaza (an indoor public park), where we sat and passed the time...

Carolynn is moving to Boston! But she's getting married in Yosemite... and poor Eric and his kids will have to move (from Palo Alto).

As often is the case, I wish I were cleaner and more polished for Joanna, and others--eventually I think I will be, but I do have this somewhat single-minded focus now (on what I'm not sure). Someday I will buy more clothes, and be more fastidious about my appearance, be sweet-smelling and shiny. For now, I'm happy that there are friends and women friends who will still spend time with me, in spite of me almost always wearing the same clothes, sleepingon the floor, eating with a spoon and bowl, and, well, I think that's about it!

mmm, thanks to william, I'm putting garlic in with my amaranth, rice, and wheat grains...

Someday, Peter and I will be going on a bikeride again! (I talked to him yesterday).

I did say hi to Ilene this morning. I was slow swimming. She swam a 3000 and counted the laps! And then has a long bikeride after that. I asked what she does social wise, with respect to always getting up at 4:30, and she said sometimes she just can't go out, but that she did go to a cocktail party sometime last week. When the competition season starts, she's gone almost every weekend.

I should ask her why she likes to do such long physical events, and to train so much. I could also ask my sister, but she's not near as into these things as Ilene, and doesn't train as much.

That really is about it. I do wish I were reading my library books, but it is also good to make progress getting the past up on this web site.--there is a relevant quote, about being too attached to the past and future, when we think those are the things which define us. But, as you probably know, I rarely question my motivations because I'm so glad to have the few I do!

Sarah, may be a no-go, she suggested saturday pm for a walk, but had changed her mind by friday.

I should also mention, though I certainly don't feel like dwelling on it, that the woman who holds the lease in the apartment I live in (there are she, 6 cats, Joe, William, and I--tell me the right grammar, please--), strikes me as a bit of a nutcase, somewhat related to a biological imbalance perhaps. So nice as this place is, I should feel somewhat more comfortable in the next place I find. I had a strong Idea she was like this before I moved in, but the situation was so good, it was worth a try. To her credit, she does have a daytime job now, and she does have friends. no more on that!

I had fun riding the subway with Carmen on friday--this weekend she is off marrying one of her old friends away in Philadelphia.

so long--

yes, and doing the work I've been doing, and emailing rachel, has brought monterey, and to a lesser extent, Kyle, back again. living in my mind. And I called mike--my old boss--I'm supposed to look at his new son (on his web site), and tell him what I think. So that too.


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