Thu 05 Feb 2004 14:51
I am so sad at the moment, and in a computer lab.

I survived the time since last time.
It was like the other times.
It is better now, because I saw her again.
But my heart beats in my stomach
Reminding me of death.
And.
And.

Glad annoyance.
Things writ.

And why do I go off like this on these things?

And why?

The poems in the class regard this.
And I have no peace.

And it is not love.

And is it anxiety.

And am I now able to forswear food and return svelte, and swim 30 100s on 125, 120, 115
because of Donna?
Pole dancing Polo Player?

Glad Annoyance.

rand.

Working on a project that is mine helps.

How long it took to read those lines for class, each read 5 times,
as mind went off.
And where that mind went.
And I remind me that time,
and second time seen,
and third,
helps.

So easy to send me off-
So easy, and that means,
so important.
so
time shall resolve it.
time shall.

This is life. Feeling. Intense. Oh. How I died.

some babble from the class:
Sleep cry die now.
Sleep cry die then.
Sleep cry die later.
You're so pale could you be in love.
Now Then Always Later.
Sleep Then Die Later.
CRy Dy Sleep Then
Sad Mournful.
Then Later.
Now - Nothing
Say Nothing Nothing

Time Time Time Time.
     & why why why
Line 12 - Last Part
Start Start SS Start
Silence -
No
Why don't I care? -- p238 #73

and some from the notepad (in class)
2004-02-05-1230
-Death
Camille-
She could walk
Time scream
Let me out of here!!
  Pen
The Class-
"I don't ask what poem
   means - I stopped
   30 years ago -
Let me out
#129 -Shakespeare
p240 - on neoprimitive.

So Ridiculous this -
Annoyed & glad.

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I want to add another poem in. so goodbye for now.
She did run along as the door closed.
She did say, "you should come stretch with me
At 7:30?

And I smiled.

"How are you?

I'm fine

You know the kind.
The titanic sank in my stomach.
And I'm fine.
So I become so.
And time.

the heart beats in my stomach.
(yes it could be that there is something wrong with me)

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