Thu 29 Aug 1996 12:00
The actress hasn't learned the lines you'd like to hear.

Did I see you biking after practise?

I should not think it's only me. The stuff I have to say is useless unless said to you.

Separation anxiety.

I am o.k. because I will see you again today...

Communion

The patterns of the sprinklers,
constant change.

rainbows and mist.

show her the copy

I wanted to see

I have the idea again and it will loose her

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Wed 28 Aug 1996 20:00
Imogen of the Sky

Hello Kristen.

Negativity.

I say, Oh, no.
About the re-evco
I say, the problem with biking is you have to be around those cars.
After thinking, I would take the bus and walk.

Whatever is slow.

And saying too much? But if I say  nothing, She does say, but if I say nothing, nothing is said. My legs are tired. Mercer.

I want to see her without her hair back, ask her some time.

Fine. Hey, did you know.

My arms are tired.

Yeah.

fine.

Great.

See you in the morning.

How adults can play.

You know, It's funny, cause I was just writing about this,

My skin is tired.

And the example I used..

Hee h

So grownups are just hopeless.

hm
 there are things they can do--

eyes.

What do you mean?

Her eyes.

What do you mean.

Oh agony oh gutless feeling, oh wrenching cry as I go on. Tone, hold, How much do you read

me.

Hold, fix, focus, bind, tractor, beam, and magnets held separated.

Magnets held separated.

Feel it. You put your hands beetween them, and you are in the lines of force. You are one, and you Feel It.

Adiabatic.

And why does she smile? Why does she smile? God, Kristen.

Yeah, totally hopeless.

Follow. Sing. Yes, sing. Do you talk? Yeah, Sing. And Dance and build sand castles.

And why do I do none of these things.

And stay with me.

Because of what I need first --


Not that they should not have kids. Backed.

Yeah.

Families. Not that they sould not have kids.

How could you? How can you. This is the hell I've been dreaming of. this is the time that we've worked for all these years. Every single person that has ever lived has made this interaction possible. And the __  is--

families

The problem is this. I've thrown out the model. I've destroyed the institutions. For some some reason, I hate to leave you.

But how could I stay, and if I did, would it be the same.

As she smiles.

I have thrown them all out, and what is left, in some rare instances is me.

I still won't do the handstands or roll in the grass, oh I will, and Oh I won't. Will you please. And smile.

See you

So I am lost.

I do want the person, I do want the family. But neither for me are justifiable or exist. They were destroyed with the images, and I try to make new ones, with the same words.

So we are always insecure

how much does she see

and marriage, well, they're not.

Yeah, Like shouldn't play with kids until kan play with self.

Singing.

yawn.

So here it is- If I had the model, I would know what I was working for. i would do the things, like say, hey let's eat

Together.

Right.



I think I want the model, but I don't know for the right reasons.

So say I could live with her as carolynn and david.

Imogen of the rain.

And now I'm thinking names, and the unthinkable, I wonder how much of a problem this image thinking is.

Let me go.

Could I be with any one, could I be, as ecccintriic, well, a little compromis is how it goes and in the end we find out what is.

Paint, sing, dance..


and so she goes.

So i love her and she's gone. And when she's gone I'll love her.

But that is not love it is something else. I don't know what.


And say we could.

and say she is.

I knever now.

crawl.

Yes my situation is hopeless. It is allways. Our situation is not hopeless, but mine is.

Yours is too.

Do you think?

growing.

That is all ittakes, the person,

but we are never old enough for another. We are always kids.

growing.

love,
Colin


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