Sat 31 Aug 1996 05:05
8.31.96 Saturday, last day in August. 5:05 am

There are some people as nice as her. Paul took me on a long bike ride,
and said, yeah you're really strong. But he was dogging me the whole way,
and, looks like you have the build of a triathelete, though I am not elite
at all.

There are some people nice as her. She is.
And how much stuff do you have to move? Mistake, or, Do you want any help moving.

Do you want any help moving.

I really don't know what to do, I really don't know.

She seems a genius somehow, she seems a genius

and this takes me. There are some people like her...

But what the do I do?

what do I do.

It is getting more scary now, scary because people are in relations I do not understand, but seem to want more than

What I need:

I think I need you to be intimate with,
but this feels so foreign, so exclusive,
I think I want to be with you forever.
I could go on, Like I do, friends with
all of her, good friends, all time, marr
to no one but Ideal, and so go on.
I am afraid of the world as I see it.
I do not understand it, and where I
am. Many things seem wrong, many.

Exclusivity.
the heaven I was in was when I was with
her alone, and I did not play the games
we just played together and she was love
to all of them as I dream.

Suppose this did happen, I do not think
it could. It is too insecure and she knows
it it it. Too insecure. To put so much meaning
In one person. And whether she knows it or not,
she helps me out of that,

But as time goes on it seem, I love her more,
I see the person she is now as who we all
wish to be. And I do not think there is all
there, I think there is a question, but all I do
not know. And how does she come so nice,
So incredible love to everyone I see, and she is
this. She is.

So my mind goes off, in a combination of complex
and

What does she fine.

How do her cousins visit her and would mine ever
me, not unless I write my sisters.
what does she do.

Hang out.

and the intensity and worry goes, and she could take it again.

It is hers and It is her  and It is her all , How much is she.

How much is she.

what am I?


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