Mon 16 Sep 1996 00:30
yuck
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Sun 15 Sep 1996 13:10
it is an incredibly beautiful day, and

wind, distant clouds, cyan plane

south

 It must be a process I can enjoy my entire life regardless of the deaths or departures of some of the people I love.

1810 I need to hug and talk to someone


Saying my friends,
is so different from saying friends,
so different,
because I see them, I know who they are, I have them,
they are mine,
and they are not mine.
I am theirs.
love.

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2100 saw the black haired girl on the way
and was not concentrating on her,
did not ask her name

just feeling quite on the way here
but there are people here.

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Sun 15 Sep 1996
A Need-Based Analysis of Individual Mass Communication Use
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Sat 14 Sep 1996 08:20
Well, I have time alone now. I know this is not the way to be, because to keep me occupied, if not happy, keep me with people. That is why the campouts and summer trips can be such incredible experiences, especially the canoe one, because we had to interact with eachother for so long, all the time, we could not be "alone" together however different we are.

I have been thinking about the kids who write for the void and imagining what I will say and do, remembering Dorothy,
thinking of calling Jackson's family and asking for his Malaysia address, I need to do that.

Thinking of how I can just be with another person, like Rebecca and simply being there, and concentrating on her presence is all I really need to do, I think, but as she concentrates on mine,
it is the appreciation, of appreciation like I mentioned before, I guess.

It is a gray day, I don't like them so much any more. I wonder why.

Knowing the security matters, and the ability to see and be with, and that is why R. is more possibly than the others, though Kr., can make the emotional intensity and express the needs, How is she.

And thinking how I am supposed to write a paper but the paper is never done, and always wondering if I will find a place in this structure. etc.

Realizing mostly that to be with another now, is what I like mostly, but in the past of me, that did not matter as much because I did not percieve it as the need. And so, each is different, choose your need, question.

And watching the spiders trying to catch the mosquito, or mosquito eater last night as they flew around the room. I am not sure if they ever did.

So I miss Kristen, Miss Rebecca, and I guess that's it. I don't miss Lise or Amy for some reason, although, I know I want to see them again. I do miss that Scott guy (rowing), but I don't know why exactly, and I don't know if there's so much I can do about that. He does not live close by and I do not see him often.

And then also realize I may as well appreciate the moment, but I had better not,

And what else.

So I have this sort of down time, and I wonder how long it will be until or if ever I can take care of the needs so that the situation is more good than otherwise.

She likes to go see her family, I like to, but it is sort of sad, because they are so far away, and I know we will be spread out for a while, if not always, but is that it?

No, because I know they cannot fill the need, untill I resolve the greater, guess.

And do wonder how both R. and K feel. R.

I guess that's it.

And know that there is more a hell for the others, and how it is, and we can change it.

kn

cr  fe

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I like how you eat"
was in my head too much for some
reason
no

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amy
mollie
Euphoria
chloe
sara
jenna
jen
kristin
David
Shannon
Bosha
Lise, Mike
Fire
Rebecca
Imke
Krista
Matt,
Mgales
Denise,
Randall
Buzz,
Gordon
paula,
lynn
Greg,
adonis
mike
Gwen,
Randy
shannon,

Or who really:
rebecca,
sara,
david,
jennah
Krista,
Kristin,
Lise,
Buzz,
Amy


All of ubrc
and friends,
and the people from before
matt,
mgales,
david,
jennah,
Amy,
sara,
mollie,
jlcrook
,
and a fire in the place, and

I should be thinking about other things, but I somehow got the idea of trying to get people together here for a group for a group.

I was trying to figure what people would be best because sometimes its easier to break if you have the right.

and because I cannot vite them all, there is not enought room.

Also, having only a few means there is less choice of who to interact with.
Well, we'll see
And there are many I would see, and I always wonder, what would happen. We're looking at.

Lise,
mollie, chloe
kristin,
rebecca,
krista,
david,
shannon red,
Amy,
sara, is she left handed?

any other guys? Jackson is gone.

quiet for now.


Kristin's skin,
and I don't know if I can say this.

not so much that I want to see what it's like to be a g student,
but, what it's like to be you.

Is it fear?
And she died,
there for a long time
there for a long time
and she was dead,
usually the food runs out and she has us early,
but she didn't

I am so scared, I am so sad
feel this

and who will understand?
And my sister whose child,

understand.

And why is she so important to me,
like She will always be important to me,
And what is her name. Was,

Go

is it fear, and what does it mean?
Who are you and what makes you,

Do you talk about other things?
What is going on? What is it like

If we were together for a long time,
I think it all would go out,
you see the exploration of the other,
never ends,
and what is depth,


And now, I will be working, for money again, with Annie Fool. I should have got out now,
but I am still here,
it is tough to loose jobs once they have begun these are not mine.

and remember,
what is it fear and what do you go on,
and show me, tell me

I still cannot forget,

how does she go
her way of life,
cut.
time,
time,

Kristin,
I need time

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emotional death for money,
I have to get out,
of course it is all attitude. All attitude. liar,
I need to be thinking about this stuff.
now.
why

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randall's having a great day making hummus. It's good to talk to him
I could use a walk right now, but I need to stay and get this done. I would much rather be playing with people

squeezing a lime

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oh sara, how's the harmonica?

sara

sara agin
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full-sized electronic keyboard with voices

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R.

Multi colored stalagtites.
and the clouds there, the light part
the edge, Oh, it is so deep, I do not want to go there
I do not want to fall


quiet, calm, the tone of your voice, and you stop, and see,
you see

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Kristin's skin.


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next saturday, 21st 12:00 at n's greenwood place.

r. When 's your birthday


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