Thu 17 Oct 1996 12:37
too many people I know have cars. use them
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Wed 16 Oct 1996 22:30
There is
Sara L-
 k-
lucksh
klusch

help

I don't feel too hot, mostly eating, and no oranges.

am not able to do this any more.

the time with gordon was great
but is not translating
onto a computer screen.

There is an interesting occurence. A one friend Sara, and another, R.
We'll see
it is another world she's in
and I cannot remember my thoughts, I am out of practise,

moreover,
this is not exciting to me any more.

Rebecca will be seen in 2006 on 10/14/96
so she will not have to wonder what I am like in diez years

and I said, you should stay in the window, and talk to me from there,
the light from behind her head,

it is so symbolic-
as I look up,
and see her there,
I could stay,

and sara, who was nice to ask me inside, and to see a person, people, world, I will never,
never know, or I will know, not without

not without,

and she said, come by and visit,
and when are you in?
oh come by any time, I like to get visitors
what is your last name,
and I do not remember,

and she had walked outside with me, she did,
and stood there,
really, do you want me to drive you home,
it is so far,
no-
and , did you want some water, do you want some water.

and she stood there, and what was she saying,

and sent me away
happy,
happy


These things are wonderful, these times are strange,
the intervals, like these, knowing I have work to do before sleep, and
more unpleasantness, food wise, perhaps to inflict on self. which does not exist.

there is no self, I am a process.

And Rebecca, I think of us visiting san diego,
s- I
did not mean

and what is

each person a future, each person a potential, if we take care of eachother, if we take care,
I am being

institutionalized,

I do realize,
I need to be financial
to reproduce,

to have some time with these few,

I am the potential they see,

I will stay just a friend, that is best, best,...
and the kis

and the peakkk
the controal, r, has it,

and the unexpected,


These women, S- have it down, been trained?
practice?

status?
then-

if you come with me, you're staying, you're staying for a long time,

forever always changed,a dn

can you tell me what is going on.

so many friends, I do not unde
not pretty m

The difficulty is who and time,
I have the time now, I have the time

never the same? always like this,
never the same

never the same
never the same

and how has this situation come about,

one the summer and the creation of comfort and ease with these friends,

and then,

I cannot say who these mean

help me

I do not know what stays, what she means, and
where did the person go,
I know

we know how to save the world.
we know what everyone wants,

know we don't

I know what everyone wants,

a certain kind of stimulation,

lasting until she dies.

love,
Colin
knot noing

sine
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