Sun 27 Oct 1996 13:20
sunday domingo dimanche

Will begin to discuss aesthetics.

What has been established?
various things about the def of aesthetics.

What is left?

The quality and Identification of the experience.

945 pm (1045pm)

I call the end for the second time now. Call the end, consider conversation, how has she
changed. I am alone now

take your time

will last friday be one of those memories, like with sara on the grass in the sun in the
spring?

Rebecca on the bench, in the cold in the wind, with the bright and yellow leaves amongst
the green behind her.

take your time.

You are alone now, yes sonny.

And partly it is my own passisivity but that is not who she is.

take your time.

time.

--
does not take much to change
me
to
very quiet
.

Fri 18 Oct 1996 16:10
my mind is blown, It is really inappropriate to write here. I should just sit and stare into the
distance, recieving visual input but not looking at anything

I saw becca again. and again, and again,
and I see her now.
She is nice,
I wonder if I may speak to her. her. to her.

This is become routine, not new, if you notice

pulling for reaction

there is too much to even start,
and
I would rather remember it, daydream, etc than
write,
just need more time to do that,
then I can write for you too,
love,
sara,
love,
becca,
love,
tarin,
love,
joanne,
love,
Kristin,
loving loving,
love,
kristin,
and
who,
is,
rebecca?

I don't know
play and ploy
scream
don't tell
it is not that far away.

tiredness,
serenity
consctruction,
and the horror of reliving my speech.

I should save the video tape

tell me sister tell me mom,
and let me do my chem work.


sacraficed p's
no there is a reason behind these things'

chemistry.
swimming.

when,
her,
again,
and who is she,
also

writing is my playing?
on occasion

I want her to drool so on me.

green
creen
you're wonderful

monterey,

I want to take her.

night and bye.

who is she.

serene,
stillwoman
female.

crin

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