Tue 02 Apr 2002 05:43
Mollie, Gordon,
playing the instrument- the base {bass} with two wands, ferociously, emotionally, notably good performance [a woman in the group noticed, seemed impressed], crying in the end as it finished, by a river or a bay, brooklyn or berkeley... then, finding mollie? Mollie shows me a place where she gave birth to chloe, there is a monument there, it is a square, wooden float in a lake or a river, with trees, as if a mangrove swamp, close by, and we are swimming, or part of the time in a canoe. [monument like a woman I met at earthaven {earthlands} eco village who buried the afterbirth at the place in alaska where her child was conceived-though mollie's monument was like a wooden head] staying with gordon, many unused cars, gordon putting pebbles/granite rocks out, working like my dad. Mollie wanting to dance, 'let's dance." But lays down, and stretches out, and I say, get up! Get up! or, you and I will fall asleep, and do we? it, sexual feelings. Then somehow, an issue of getting to german embassy and back-needing a visa for a party. leaving and flying (my breastroke style) above a posh crowd, passing a friendly blonde woman, who would come with me--she can't fly as well, and I say to go on ahead without me--she is excited to go. Fly up a steep hil, then do not fly but make my way through a dark, condemned building where I used to live--windows that were there are now broken out, but in a warehouse part I had never seen before are stacks of new mattresses. The neighbors dog does not make noise. I am barefoot, but do not hurt myself, though it is dark and there is lots of debris, and am able to lift up a flimsy chainlink fence to crawl under and get out. By a mailbox near top of a nice street, beverly calls on my cell phone, is sorry about not getting back to me (this is while a friendly kid on a bike? was telling me the way to the german place), and says she & other grad students had just got invited too, but she wasn't too excited about the drinking [not really like beverly, more like a combo of bev and joanna]

waking up, remembering the last, contemplating it, while on the john and teeth cleaning, then eventually, the earlier part came back as well. Deciding to spend more time with dreams because of Wilber, and progoff.

Thoughts about working with images- with gimp, for web site, how affects mind...adjusting image till just right, learning how.

Remembering my dancing/ exercise and feeling like I'm developing some new movement things I like to do, playing with balance. Remembering ilene, because I got up earlier, and could make it there on sunday first thing like she does if careful (though she may not be there). Cell phone alarm works even if off.

And other dreams. Used to ignore because so non-sensical, not rewarding to attempt to remember and consider--but so often they are less mundane than my existence--so may be paying attention now. Like those women in suburbia 50's whose greatest excitement was when they went to sleep and would dream and then get together and talk about their dreams?

Curious about catching the transition in dreams--seeing if there is continuity between seemingly disparate scenes, and if there's not, how does the transition occur. or will the effort to do so make the dream transitions more connected?

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