Mon 07 Oct 1996 17:15
good to see kristen today, very good
not understanding what it is she means.

emotional intensity.

I need rebecca. She makes the work I do now possible, perhaps.
Maybe not.
She helps me stay happy,
needs.

The work I do now, chemistry.
I work and it is nice to get work done. But what I do now I do to take biology later.
I do this to take care of myself, that
later I may create my environ, and help another create hers,
that's what I say,

even if I have aquiesced mental, it is fine,
feel almost contentmnt.

how are you, folks?

I want to see Kristen,
R,
love,
Colin

My two good friends.

--

I feel fine in the anonymity

I feel less fine kissing and hugging around others I want to kiss and hug just as much?

roomates? Krista, Ilona?

Yeah, I could hug you in front of the guys, but in front of the women I would feel a little
reserve.

see-

not in the anonym of the park

kristin.
--

1012pm

Kristin called at 905 or so,

It would be nice to talk to her especially at night,
It is so good to hear her,
see her.

IT was nice to talk to sara,

Ilona and Krista are so nice, and so beautiful
these people are amaz

I should not have said, it is not when you don't take it seriously,
but there is a certain amount of unconcern with which to view these things
at the end,
and there is nothing but vital concern in the months before,

I will get to ask her about it, and see,

oh all these people,

what happens here,

so what happens now?

who is Rebecca?

who is anyone
what am i

fine
love

lab work
philosophy paper
and speeches

consider the time,
how you would like to use it,

d
o

--

Kr,

Colin

what is it that rebecca does?

how can I understand the characteristics of these two
of these all people
R
there is
is there
Galvaniz
ation

still Kr,
emot
connex
t

crime

llsll

chem

--
part of it is i sort of feel, whether it is or not, they come down and talk because I am there,
at least they are not leaving

I want to ask the question of
motivation
and of
happiness
and consider the
lives
which
are the most
aesthetically pleasing

the most emotionally invovled, intensly?
involved

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