Sun 06 Oct 1996 04:05
not getting emotional depth with R,
but what is emotional depth
--
645 am
thinking about Kristin, Rebecc, fatness (my own)
paper
looking at sunrise,
thinking about Kristen,
thinking about sexual
thinking about long term,
thinking about order,
mechanism,
coherency,
possiblity of understanding.
feeling fatness (my own)
it has now been liberated.
I am constructing a plan
to not have to think about it any more
talking about acceptability,
what is ok,
and wanting Kristin
because
I don't understand,
she is tall,
and nice,
but a definite risk
a risk?
And what it would mean to R.
And what are my intentions,
and what should it mean
etc,
etc,
etc.,
.
These are things we all can talk about.
oh, I am wanting to copulate now. What fun,
there is no one around. I imagine finding her,
and reality is different I know
color field
by understanding myself
biologically, and others,
together, we can create environments where we meet our needs,
interact pleasurably,
in my case, intensly emotionally
So perhaps I and some of these women can work together, and maybe some of the people
they know well
m
want to help?
how
much of these needs are created by the presence of the sex?
which are valid, which are not.
we can try and see.
Rebecca, I want to see you now-
I can be less sure of Kristen
oh let me get on with the work, the Higher-Level brain function work, I presumably should
be getting done.
-
Kristin @ 9:30
--
9:30 no Kr
--
napped.
spending most of my time aroused is not fun
--
12 r called
procrastin
842pm
dinner wi
images to optic nerve,
transcription of spoken words using eeg
laser into eyes.
--
randall forgets to eat while alone
likes to eat when with people
.