Sun 06 Oct 1996 04:05
not getting emotional depth with R,
but what is emotional depth

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645 am

thinking about Kristin, Rebecc, fatness (my own)
paper
looking at sunrise,
thinking about Kristen,
thinking about sexual

thinking about long term,
thinking about order,
mechanism,
coherency,
possiblity of understanding.

feeling fatness (my own)
it has now been liberated.
I am constructing a plan
to not have to think about it any more

talking about acceptability,
what is ok,
and wanting Kristin
because
I don't understand,
she is tall,
and nice,
but a definite risk
a risk?

And what it would mean to R.

And what are my intentions,
and what should it mean

etc,
etc,
etc.,
.

These are things we all can talk about.

oh, I am wanting to copulate now. What fun,
there is no one around. I imagine finding her,
and reality is different I know

color field

by understanding myself
biologically, and others,
together, we can create environments where we meet our needs,
interact pleasurably,
in my case, intensly emotionally

So perhaps I and some of these women can work together, and maybe some of the people
they know well

m

want to help?

how
much of these needs are created by the presence of the sex?

which are valid, which are not.

we can try and see.

Rebecca, I want to see you now-
I can be less sure of Kristen

oh let me get on with the work, the Higher-Level brain function work, I presumably should
be getting done.

-
Kristin @ 9:30

--
9:30 no Kr

--
napped.
spending most of my time aroused is not fun

--
12 r called
procrastin

842pm
dinner wi

images to optic nerve,

transcription of spoken words using eeg

laser into eyes.

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randall forgets to eat while alone
likes to eat when with people

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