Fri 15 Mar 2002 17:46
joanna- no disclaimer necessary
self letter is an important one?

with carmen and sarah both, how did carmen perceive me then? I did not like myself then.

how did self-revelation/disclosure to carmen of eating change way she thought about me/felt.

the interaction seems to be a game, which if i'm able to get certain things out of myself, and see how others react, I consider it a success.

what distguishes the people I feel I can make progress with.

me feeling problems with the vibes sending to susannah

with joanna have been able to talk specifically about new thoughts about self/emotions inspired in part by interaction with her.

experience of doctors appt

self-reflexivity defined by giddens as characteristic of late modern age. how does that def affect my attitude toward self-reflexivity

kaminsky

rodriguez, phlebotomist

police and sound

fresh out of school

kaminsky question mercury

emma and friend nicole get rid of him- amazon

assuming any underwear

straight for the most part

straight gay bisexual- or something else?

quick and experienced hands.

wanting a dim light.

imagine.

Joanna's coke/pigeons/gas station picture and snowman

would I want nicole's information?

getting annoyed--
fear of making a mistake when one's every action is seen as symbolic, noticed, reacted to, sensed.
fear.

joanna's conversation with herself. based on acts of others.

nervous breakdown i love you

so
what
should
my
plan
be

Finding the more self-reflexive, and those who have self-reflexed for some time, i.e. carmen?

Today was a good day, interms of experience providing emotions and food for thought, and more to look forward to.

The story of the perfect optometry student. The chill walked into the room. Is it evil or just fear?

the old journals, but what about the ones not yet written?

this really is what I wish to do with my time. Is there any way to keep it up to maintain it, and at what level? Who, where are the people who will blow my mind the most?

I do want someone I can play with in more ways...
How does she want to play?
How to overcome the age/experience difference? She can help me, she needs to feel she has something to give me--needs to see for herself that I have reasons to value her. In addition to her valuing me, however she does.

what are we? what are we doing? holding hands? How special is she? She has fine, maybe overdeveloped emotional sensability? The definition of responsive?

let's concentrate instead on how wonderful I am perceived/considered as a monk.

Dancer dancing with cell phone so she can get a job.

rich and pool rules and interactions related to that

get lock from anne?

a superstar of a seldom celebrated kind

...you were not!

sd: it may be time to start keeping bookmarks again

where to next, and where's my place? my current place is well, and from here I can check out others, in the idea realm. possibly poeple-wise as well

idea wise, adventure is easy to find. People wise, I'm still seeking, perhaps for Gordons who can mean something to me.

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does hal have computer at home?

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