Thu 12 Feb 2004 14:06
wow. so, I'm at sdsu lab using qwerty to dvorak converter.
should I be out in sun under tree? oh, what all has occurred?
camille is not chasing, so that has gone over to the accompaniement of blake's "song", byron's "we'll go no more a-roving", and so on. And I was hacked when I updated my win2k here on tuesday, but I seem to have the bad effects under control.... and didn't notice it because I was bingeing on linux.... which I gave up on, due to such poor configuration... screen issues manpage issues, terminal issues, the killer was ctrl-w not working in mozilla.


so.The computer binge, and related sunflower (roasted salted) one, was the latest reminder of regressive, obsessive tendencies.There was a tv show on last pm around 2130 or so. The character, slim woman, funky glasses, my sort of cute, overate if rejected and left imaginative and obsessive phone messages. They did such a good job of showing me my past self and present,,,... and no doubt others' .


And class today,,, the need to _not_ look through the language and metaphor for meaning.  The need to stage the poem. Cases were; chapman's homer, the "song".  


what eles? and sharing with farber his success in hitting hard that tendency in me. and then him going on to deci and ryan intrinsic extrinsic motivation, and mentioning alfie kohn. and the 1999 psychological bulletin.  

ropes course facilitatir training looks like it will be a wonderful and good thing. And now to end computer binge and read more. coleridge and and .

and, earlier, getting into music, seeing violinist (basement of music dept--practice rooms)

and trying to read coleridge, and it taking time to get focused and into it (--"why am I doing this-- what else") and so on.

bye!

beautiful day


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