If I were to write about experience, what would I write? What things can I say that I would value?
I think it is important that I work on this project, but often I feel I have little to say. That is why the focus of this site is to be a place for people in general to discuss experience. But if I do not want to write about it, how likely is it that anyone else would?
Actually, there are times I wish I felt like or had the opportunity to write about experience. I want to have the best experience, and I have many questions about how I can do that. Many of these questions have to do with my particular psychology, but that would be true of anyone's thoughts about experience.
On my mind somewhat often is a wondering about the potential of relationships with others to offer rewarding experience. This is very unclear to me.
I also wonder what wonderful things can I give myself to look forward to, because I believe looking forward to things contributes significantly to loving living.
At the moment, I don't feel terribly excited about anything, and this has an adverse effect on many aspects of my life. However, I do have a general feeling that living is reasonably pleasant, and this is a significant improvement from my general feeling about life a few years ago. A true excitement and love of life is not here yet, and I want that to be strongly and lastingly present. I have also been fortunate to achieve a reasonable amount of excitement and love of life fairly recently, and I think with some tweaking and refinement, I can protect and build upon the conditions that supported that love previously.
There have been some moments of great frustration for me recently... these are signals that I'm doing things wrong. The better decisions are not immediately clear, but I have some ideas. All this abstraction might be somewhat boring, but it seems appropriate.
One recent event that is relevant has been my poor handling of the declining stock market. My concern or focus on my stocks was affecting my getting up early, swimming before work, and getting to work early- things that are very important for my enjoyment of daily life. Moreover, I would rather spend more time working on this site and less focused on what to do with money. I have adopted some rules which should help me avoid these problems in the future: no trading in the morning- only after work. Generally, of course, I do not want to be trading at all. I'm falling asleep. More will have to wait.
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